A year has passed since I resigned from my office job and started my traveling around the world from Europe to South East Asia. During this year, many things happened.
A few months after starting my trip, I found myself in another journey as well. A journey of a different kind. While I was traveling in the outer world, I also went to the universe within. This is how my trip started to go in two directions.
There are many similarities between both journeys. In travel, we go to places that we have never been to. Before going there, we feel excited about exploring the new place. Same goes to traveling to the inner world when you know you're entering new places within yourself, within your soul and body.
The moment I left home in Mount Lebanon with my 10 kg backpack, my life became an adventure. When I say adventure, I don't necessarily mean it in a Hollywood way, even though I think I had some Hollywood moments in places.
Adventure is to leave everything that you know. All the stability, the high paid job, the comfortable couch, the 4WD car, and decide to get out of your comfort zone and get into the total unknown. To live a keyless life: no home key, no car key, no office key. To go on an adventure is to accept death: the death of your old world, and to create a new one.
Before traveling, I made a few decisions regarding myself. These decisions are focused on two main ideas. First, this trip is to heal myself from all the poison that accumulated inside my soul and body over seven years of living in Dubai. Second, in this trip, I'll go wherever the universe takes me.
These decisions were my gateway to the process of letting go. It's a long and tough process that I’ve been going through: Trekking in the mountains, spending time in the forest, dancing in Techno and Psy Trance parties, having deep connection with people around me, laughing, writing and meditating.
In order to grow, we have to let go. We can't grow while we're in a huge comfort zone where our senses are numb by the grey walls of the office. The office world is a flat world and spending years inside these postmodern buildings makes people similar to these offices: flat and lame.
Additionally, clinging to the past and holding back takes space from ourselves, and carrying unnecessary baggage slows us down. To grow, we have to fight all the battles within. To grow, we have to stop consuming the news around us. In order to grow, we have to focus and be selective how we spend our energy and time and where we spend it. To let go, we have to trust our instinct.
Since I started my journey, everyday I let go more; and the more I let go, the more I have harmony and inner peace.
Going into the inner world is an adventure in itself.
I hold a torch with me while going through that dark forest within. Everyday, I go there. I get rid of stuff that I'm not using. I fix some ideas and concepts. I think about some past events. I learn about myself, and I unlearn my patterns.
Sometimes, I feel like ‘Mario’ going to the underground of the self. Sometimes, I'm a chemist who's trying to find the best remedy for healing. Sometimes, I'm an investigator who's investigating an unsolved mystery in my mind. Sometimes, I'm a fighter who's fighting inner demons. Sometimes, I'm a hermit who's trying to have a deeper understanding of the consciousness and life itself.
I do all of this while taking life less seriously. It's a fun journey, and I'm being playful about it.
Spring always has an impact on my life. A major shift, on many levels, is happening this spring. One aspect of this shift is overcoming many obstacles and letting go of blockages. Another aspect of the shift is feeling the flow of energy in my body. This flow is reflected in many ways: the way I perceive life. The way I walk. The way I dance. The way I think.
This flow brought harmony and alignment to my life between the outer and inner worlds. The two are interconnected through music, fire, dance, and the breath.
Now, I have a better understanding of the meaning of alignment between different worlds. This is how both journeys became one large expedition. Life is a mystery and, as I journey in it, I try to find the pieces of the puzzle. Sometimes, a piece of the puzzle comes from a childhood memory. Sometimes from a cemetery that I'm visiting. At another time, it appears as I talk to a stranger at a party.
We're constantly in the process of birth and death. My old world started to collapse the moment I resigned from my job. In the last year, I've been building a new world. Today, I have a glimpse into what the future will bring to me and what kind of world I want to build around me with my tribe, with my people. That's a story for another time.
When we spend a long time in one place during an exploratory trip, we start to see the other dimensions of the place. Same goes for the inward trip.
The more I spend time in my inner world, the better and deeper knowledge I have of the different worlds within me.
Perceiving life as an adventure changed the way I deal with the daily routines. Everyday brings a revelation of life. Everyday, when I wake up, I start finding the pieces of the puzzle that I'll add to the big picture. Sometimes, the piece of the puzzle doesn't fit the picture, then I'll keep it aside. Some things won't make sense today, but later they will.
This is how I prefer to live my life: one piece of puzzle at a time.